Wednesday, September 23, 2009

Equal Representation Under the Media

"'Cause both black and white is smokin' crack tonight" ~ Tupac Shakur

Long time, no write. I’ve been so busy lately and have really neglected my blog. But here I am!

The other night, I was hanging out with my fraternity brothers and we were discussing the fact that we, as young black (for the most part) men, try to hold up a light in this nation through our scholarship, service, and chivalry. We are far from perfect, but we are on a daily quest toward perfection. I feel like, both in and outside of my fraternity, most young black men are positive people who want to lead successful lives and provide for our families. We are not all the deadbeat dads, wannabe rappers/hoopers (no offense to those who aspire to be artists or athletes), or criminals that this mainstream (white) culture paints us to be.

But anyway, I have digressed. As my brothers and I were discussing being a light on campus, we received a text from UNCG campus alerts saying “2 armed robberies occurred off campus. 2 B/M driving a red Nissan pkup. 1 wearing plaid shirt, short dreadlocks, armed with a silver handgun.” I was kind of frustrated when I saw this. Me and a few of the bruhs talked about it for a while. I expressed the sentiment that I am sick of the fact that we are constantly singled out by the system for criminal acts. So often, the picture is painted that we are savages who have to be tamed by whites. Those of us who are in college have been “well-trained” and are the exception to the rule, whereas those of us who continue to commit crimes are just expressing natural criminal-mindedness. I beg to differ. If we want to take that route, I would have to say that white people are naturally exploitive and lazy because they enslaved and raped the resources of numerous nations. But I try to stay away from thinking that the word “all” is expressive of any group because there are always exceptions to every “rule.” So why is my nation, the one that drafted my uncles into one war and my grandfather into another, continuing to paint a picture of me that says “Be afraid. Be very afraid.” If there are angry black men, it is because YOU made us this way. You is anyone in this nation, from me to Barack to George Bush to a member of the Klan. It is anyone who subscribes to any degree to the theory that blacks are inferior to whites. It is not possible to not subscribe to it at all because it has been beaten into our subconscious. All you can try to do is fight it now.

Now, the other side of this argument was given by my Dean; true, we’re not all like this, but we still have people who do the same thing time and time again. And I can’t deny that, even though we are disproportionately represented via the media and disproportionately targeted by the police, these crimes very often do happen. So now I must ask, are those of us who are black and privileged doing enough? I must say “No!” We are in the community, but we aren’t there enough. We are giving money, but we’re not giving enough. We are serving as mentors but we’re not serving enough. We have to give up more of a percentage of what we have because, aside from time, we as a whole have fewer resources than whites and we need more help. So, in the case where whites give 5% of their free time to serve at a soup kitchen or as a mentor, we have to give 20% because our need is that great. When they give 10% of their money to the Jack & Jill, we have to give 18% to UNCF because our need is that great. For every 2 times they invite their son’s underprivileged friend over for a play date, we have to invite our son’s underprivileged friend over 6 times so they know what it’s like to have that strong male influence. We have to get these crime rates and single parent rates and infant mortality rates and high school dropout rates down. I am appreciative of any person, regardless of race, who helps a needy person, but we have to hold our own people accountable too. Yesterday, my brother Isaac Brennan Horton said “The Bible says ‘Greater love hath no man than this, that a man lay down his life for his friends,’ so what are a few dollars.” Let’s keep that mentality when we’re giving back to others. Give more than you planned to, even if it’s only by 50 cents or 15 minutes. You never know how much help that could be.


Litera scripta manet. - Unknown

Thursday, August 13, 2009

Nothingness

Don't feel much like writing tonight. So I'm not. Goodnight


Litera scripta manet. - Unknown

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

Hawthorne (No Jada)

"No man can wear one face to himself and another to the multitude without finally getting bewildered as to which may be true ”— N. Hawthorne



I just saw this quote and had to write about it. It is crazy the faces we wear to keep up an appearance, but really, we have to be real. Facades can only take us so far before we start believing the lies that we lead. But the truth always comes out, so if we're not honest with ourselves as well as with those around us, we will cause such turmoil within ourselves that it could cause a breakdown. I am right now looking myself in the mirror, seeing the ways in which I have changed, and trying to strengthen the positive changes I've undergone, while adjusting the negative aspects of my personality. I made myself believe that I was something I wasn't and it has hurt myself, those closest to me, and those who could have been close to me.

Still, I know that I will wear different faces in business settings to get what I want. As long as I can remove the face when I take a look in the mirror and still bear to look at myself, I know that I will be OK. In personal settings, I am going to try to increase my mask-less representation. I want to be straight forward with everyone all the time from now on, because a lack of full disclosure leads to people being hurt and as little as I care about some people, no one deserves to be hurt and if I could stop myself from ever hurting anyone else emotionally again I would. But because I hope not to die tonight, that wish probably won't come true. So the least I can do is be honest from the jump





Litera scripta manet. - Unknown

Tonight is The Night (maybe)

Good morning. I'm just now getting in from a pretty fun night. Which leads me to write about my fun summer. But we will look at this summer in the context of four nights, two being very extreme, two being pretty moderate.

Far Right
On a boring night (50% of my summer), I eat with my family, sit around the house and watch television, end the night on the phone. The phone is usually the highlight of my evening, but I consider the evening boring because I spend it in the confines of my parents' home.

Moderate right
On a pretty moderate night (20% of my summer), I'll end up at a cookout or pool party, usually with the bruhs. Maybe a couple beers and some food. Just some all around good fellowship with friends. (<--example of tonight)

Moderate left
On another pretty regularly occurring night (25% of my summer), I go out to a bar, house party, apartment party, or club. I might have 2 or 3 drinks, but I'm mainly just there to enjoy the company of those around me. It's fun to just go out and relax in a very social setting since I spend my days doing nothing.

Far left
The rarest of all these types of nights has only gotten me once this summer and it left me confused. We'll leave it at that, but it's not something I make a habit of. If you want details, get in touch w/ me personally.

During the day, I try to be productive even though I don't have much to do. But I set goals for myself and reach them. So at night, I try to relax with friends. 85% of the times I've been out, it's been with my best friend. He just graduated and is about to leave for a full-time job so I am trying to enjoy time spent with him. This year been too much of a blessing to me not to enjoy it so I'm enjoy every season, especially summer. -)


Litera scripta manet. - Unknown

Monday, August 10, 2009

I Guess Sometimes Parents Just Do Understand

OK, this is NOT going to happen often so I'm going to write it while I am feeling humble.

My parents are not always wrong. Sometimes they are right.

UNCG wanted to make me pay them all of the money I owe before they released my financial aid. So I called them and they said I had to pay the entire $300 that I owe. So I was just going to pay it. But my parents were adamant about calling the Cashier's office so, after I tried to talk them out of wasting time on that, I said fine. So we talked to a lady in the Cashier's Office and she said that Financial Aid was wrong. All I really have to do is pay $95.91 and I'd be good. Had I not listened to Deryle Daniels, Sr., I would have had to borrow $300 from a bruh. So I am glad I listened this time. But I still think I'm right most of the time.


Litera scripta manet. - Unknown

Friday, August 7, 2009

D3 in 3D

Shout to Brother Jaren Doby for the photograph

Don't Call Me King Leonidas

The closer I get to next Saturday, the more ready I am to move back to Greensboro. I have been ready to start this year for sooooooooooooo long. Even though I will have an extra semester (not planned for), this is my last full year of school! I am so thankful that God brought me this far. This generation is going to be the first on my father mother's side to graduate from college. I am only preceded as the first male to graduate only by my older cousin Sean. On my mom's side I will be the first male to graduate ever. (I am not including anyone outside of uncles, aunts, first cousins in these "facts").
Anyway, in preparation for this year, I have been working on my mind, body, and soul. I hope to go back to school focused, with a plan, but also with an open mind and a strong, yet flexible schedule. I really want to work hard, enjoy this year, and make the most out of everyday. I'm going to go see every movie I want to see this year. I'm not going to party too much, but when I do go out, I'm going to have a great time (Plug - ****BLACK PEARL***** HOSTED BY THE PLAYBOI PI ZETA CHAPTER OF AΦA AND THE LADIES OF PEARLFECTION ******THURSDAY AUGUST 27TH******** @ BENTLY'S...FREE SHUTTLE RIDES TO AND FROM THE CLUB....THE OFFICIAL BACK TO SCHOOL PARTY...................06-08-OH YEAH!!). I am going to hang out with my fraternity brothers, regardless of chapter, and go on road trips. I'm going to have out of town bruhs sleeping on my couch when they come through Greensboro because that is the true meaning of fraternity. I am going to pull at least a 3.5 GPA because I'm in college to get an education. I am going to read the Bible every day. I am going to get bigger and stronger. I am going to serve the community. BBSA will be the premiere general body organization (not black organization but organization period) on the campus of UNCG. The Pi Zeta chapter of Alpha Phi Alpha Fraternity will hold up the light for the campus to see. It will be a great year because life is too short not to enjoy it.
When I look back over the past 3 years, I must say that I am fortunate to have had the opportunities I have had. God has given me opportunities that many people could only dream of. Though true friends are few and far between, the ones that I really can count on have been rocks to me. Life is a blessing and I really want to take all of it's lessons and let this year be an unforgettable one. So if you're hating, hate on. But if you're with me, let's make moves this year. Let's make the University of North Carolina at Greensboro the most dynamic school in the The University of North Carolina system. Regardless of what organization(s) you might be in, let the UNCG chapter of that organization be the strongest in the state and the nation. Let's let the light of our school shine bright and, with or without a football team or a Tarheel-talented basketball roster, let's make our school everyone's first choice.


Litera scripta manet. - Unknown