At this point, me is who I'm trying to save myself from. -- Drake
Living the fast life takes a toll. You don't know when to say no to others and yes to yourself. Took me a while to get to the point where I could do both regularly but I'm finally there.
I was definitely in the same boat as Drake for a while, "spending all of my time with the wrong women." I didn't know what I wanted to do but I knew it wasn't be locked down in a relationship. I wanted to be an eligible bachelor and enjoy my college days. It got old quickly. Then, somehow, this very different young lady caught my eye and there you have it.
Litera scripta manet. - Unknown
Showing posts with label Thank Me Later Series. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Thank Me Later Series. Show all posts
Wednesday, October 6, 2010
Light Up
They always tell me nobody's working as hard as you and even though I laugh it off, man it's probably true... Don't get impatient when it takes too long. -- Drake
Even though I'm trying to enjoy my life, sometimes it feels like even trying to enjoy it is a job. Everyone says when they want to do work when they join a fraternity/sorority but a Greek organization is a corporation so you have to decide whether or not you're going to do the work of a CEO or that of the doorman. It is often exhausting to say the least but I must say that I wouldn't trade my letters for anyone else's.
One thing that I'm learning more and more is that just being smart isn't enough. Success is all about hard work and being there when the opportunity presents itself. I'm always there for the opportunity but for the first time in a while I feel that my work ethic, academically speaking, is matching up with my intelligence. Who would've thought I'd be caught in this life lesson?
I'd already written on Jay-Z's verse August 27 in the post titled "Triple Entendre" so I won't bore my regular readers.
Litera scripta manet. - Unknown
Even though I'm trying to enjoy my life, sometimes it feels like even trying to enjoy it is a job. Everyone says when they want to do work when they join a fraternity/sorority but a Greek organization is a corporation so you have to decide whether or not you're going to do the work of a CEO or that of the doorman. It is often exhausting to say the least but I must say that I wouldn't trade my letters for anyone else's.
One thing that I'm learning more and more is that just being smart isn't enough. Success is all about hard work and being there when the opportunity presents itself. I'm always there for the opportunity but for the first time in a while I feel that my work ethic, academically speaking, is matching up with my intelligence. Who would've thought I'd be caught in this life lesson?
I'd already written on Jay-Z's verse August 27 in the post titled "Triple Entendre" so I won't bore my regular readers.
Litera scripta manet. - Unknown
Show Me A Good Time
I live for the night's I can't remember with the people that I won't forget. -- Drake
"I ain't tryin' to look like I lied to these n***as that I came up with." So many people believe that I'm going to make it on to the cover of Forbes that I feel like if I don't, I will have failed. So I live like I'm already there because I know I will get there, and if not there, pretty close.
Short and simple.
Litera scripta manet. - Unknown
"I ain't tryin' to look like I lied to these n***as that I came up with." So many people believe that I'm going to make it on to the cover of Forbes that I feel like if I don't, I will have failed. So I live like I'm already there because I know I will get there, and if not there, pretty close.
Short and simple.
Litera scripta manet. - Unknown
Friday, September 17, 2010
The Resistance
What am I afraid of? This is supposed to be what dreams are made of. -- Drake
It's 8:00 AM. I am up, getting ready to hit the weight room with my LB, then going to class. At noon I am sitting on a panel with the chancellor and the provost. After that I'm going to pick up a new, tailored suit and then heading to my staff meeting. Greek social, movie night w/ friends, greek social part 2, bed (the rest of the night). Last night I hit the club, no wait, VIP, "Deryle + 7" on the list. Day before that I was chilling with some of my chapter and BE. getting love at the Mr. 1913 pageant. I am turning down good girls because I have a great one. I meet all the right people at the right times. My spirituality is on the come up. I'm one of the strongest candidates for homecoming king. I'm the president of the fraternity. I am really living the dream life.
But with all that, I have lost the simplicity. All the excitement has grown old. With all of that, I often find myself wanting to vacation for a week in my own home. "Nothing really comes as a surprise right now. We're just having the time of our lives right now." Problem is, I miss the surprises. I miss saying "wow, that was fun." Now I say "That was a good party," because of it's level of success and not because it was anything new to me. The novelty of having bad chicks at my beck and call has worn off. All I really want these days is to have a regular relationship without the UNCG tabloids (living breathing publications who can't help but gossip) scrutinizing my every move.
Then there are those who hit me with the "you promised me you'd never change up." And then I look in the mirror and I ask myself if I have changed. I see it sometimes. Other times I just see stronger in the mirror. Can't go back. This is me. Onward and upward.
Keeping it 100, there are even times I need a break from the bruhs. It's just like a real family - if you spend too much time w/ anyone, you'll go crazy. I eat, drink, sleep, workout, and party Alpha, always with a sprinkle of Delta and/or AKA on the side. It's crazy that I got what I wanted, only to find out that everything that glitters really isn't gold. Oh well.
Sent from my Verizon Wireless BlackBerry
Litera scripta manet. - Unknown
Sunday, September 12, 2010
Karaoke
Do you even feel it anymore? -- Drake
This song really resonates with me, especially where he raps. "I hope you don't get known for nothin' crazy 'cause no man ever wants to hear those stories 'bout his lady. I know they say the first love is the sweetest but that first cut is the deepest. I tried to keep us together but you were busy keeping secrets." There was a point in my life (noticeably right after I crossed the burning sands) that I was so focused on my success and moving forward for myself that I wasn't able to give those I cared about the attention needed to sustain relationships, therefore those relationships (both romantic and platonic) fell off. I was replaced in some instances and all bridges had been burned. In others, I had to go back and rebuild. Either way, life keeps moving. As Drake said, "I was was only trying to get ahead." I got there and, thankfully, I able to regain my happiness at the same time. Lesson learned.
Litera scripta manet. - Unknown
This song really resonates with me, especially where he raps. "I hope you don't get known for nothin' crazy 'cause no man ever wants to hear those stories 'bout his lady. I know they say the first love is the sweetest but that first cut is the deepest. I tried to keep us together but you were busy keeping secrets." There was a point in my life (noticeably right after I crossed the burning sands) that I was so focused on my success and moving forward for myself that I wasn't able to give those I cared about the attention needed to sustain relationships, therefore those relationships (both romantic and platonic) fell off. I was replaced in some instances and all bridges had been burned. In others, I had to go back and rebuild. Either way, life keeps moving. As Drake said, "I was was only trying to get ahead." I got there and, thankfully, I able to regain my happiness at the same time. Lesson learned.
Litera scripta manet. - Unknown
Thursday, September 9, 2010
Fireworks ft. Alicia Keys
(Alpha) just changed everything -- Drake
Drake said "money," but Alpha is what did it for me. I can't lie, I got off line and it was like night and day. I went from known to unmistakably recognizable. And not just to the general student population but to campus officials, student leaders, and local movers and shakers. I no longer paid to get into parties. VIP was no longer a booth that had to be purchased but one that I was invited into. Girls who never gave me the time of day were all of a sudden sending me texts from numbers I didn't recognize. "Everything's the same but it feels different." I am still the same height. I am still black. I still have the same personality, just turned up 3 notches. Realizing all of that, I still feel like my life has been altered forever. I feel like I will never look at things the way I did before I pledged. I know life is the same but my outlook on it has changed so greatly that I can't go back to thinking the way I did before. I feel like Neo. I choose to take the old gold and black pill and my level of consciousness was all of a sudden heightened.
With all of that came the negative. "When I hear them talking, I just don't know what to make of it. Hate is so familiar to me, I'm slowly embracing it." It was crazy how many people who I was cool with gave me the lukewarm shoulder after I crossed because they weren't selected. And for every girl who would give me the time of day, that many more wouldn't just because I had letters. It was crazy. In my eyes I am just another guy but, looking from the outside in, I really used to look up to the bruhs before I was one. I used to always hear girls talking about how they wanted to chill w/the bruhs. Now I am the embodiment of what I used to see.
The loss of love came as a result of Alpha. "I hope that my success never alters our relationship." Not even the fact that I was messing with a lot of girls at first, but the perception of such caused a tremendous fault to form in my former relationship of going on 4 and a half years. Though that loss opened up doors for a major gain in the form of Ms. Desireé Bell, it doesn't change the fact that a loss was still taken. "You never see it coming, you just get to see it go."
"My dreams are who I'm racing with but you can see I'm pacing it so that I'm always chasing it." I feel like I am more ambitious than 99.9% of the people alive today. I see no ceiling, only sky. Problem is, I know that I'm going to do it all and after I do, then what? I really have to look for things I haven't done in college yet. I have to do stuff like run for homecoming king and consider running for SGA senator because I feel like I have very little left to experience at UNCG. From the parties to the religious organizations to Greek life to the campus political arena to being a servant, I really feel that I have done it all. I have loved my college experience, I just don't want it to bore me this PHInal year.
Litera scripta manet. - Unknown
Drake said "money," but Alpha is what did it for me. I can't lie, I got off line and it was like night and day. I went from known to unmistakably recognizable. And not just to the general student population but to campus officials, student leaders, and local movers and shakers. I no longer paid to get into parties. VIP was no longer a booth that had to be purchased but one that I was invited into. Girls who never gave me the time of day were all of a sudden sending me texts from numbers I didn't recognize. "Everything's the same but it feels different." I am still the same height. I am still black. I still have the same personality, just turned up 3 notches. Realizing all of that, I still feel like my life has been altered forever. I feel like I will never look at things the way I did before I pledged. I know life is the same but my outlook on it has changed so greatly that I can't go back to thinking the way I did before. I feel like Neo. I choose to take the old gold and black pill and my level of consciousness was all of a sudden heightened.
With all of that came the negative. "When I hear them talking, I just don't know what to make of it. Hate is so familiar to me, I'm slowly embracing it." It was crazy how many people who I was cool with gave me the lukewarm shoulder after I crossed because they weren't selected. And for every girl who would give me the time of day, that many more wouldn't just because I had letters. It was crazy. In my eyes I am just another guy but, looking from the outside in, I really used to look up to the bruhs before I was one. I used to always hear girls talking about how they wanted to chill w/the bruhs. Now I am the embodiment of what I used to see.
The loss of love came as a result of Alpha. "I hope that my success never alters our relationship." Not even the fact that I was messing with a lot of girls at first, but the perception of such caused a tremendous fault to form in my former relationship of going on 4 and a half years. Though that loss opened up doors for a major gain in the form of Ms. Desireé Bell, it doesn't change the fact that a loss was still taken. "You never see it coming, you just get to see it go."
"My dreams are who I'm racing with but you can see I'm pacing it so that I'm always chasing it." I feel like I am more ambitious than 99.9% of the people alive today. I see no ceiling, only sky. Problem is, I know that I'm going to do it all and after I do, then what? I really have to look for things I haven't done in college yet. I have to do stuff like run for homecoming king and consider running for SGA senator because I feel like I have very little left to experience at UNCG. From the parties to the religious organizations to Greek life to the campus political arena to being a servant, I really feel that I have done it all. I have loved my college experience, I just don't want it to bore me this PHInal year.
Litera scripta manet. - Unknown
Tuesday, September 7, 2010
Thank Me Later Series
I believe that Drake's CD, Thank Me Later, speaks volumes to the life of an involved young black college male. Many of my friends and I have sat and discussed the relevance that his songs have and the ways we can relate them to our lives. So, over the next couple of weeks, I will be posting blogs related to every or nearly every song on the album. Just something that I thought would be interesting.
Litera scripta manet. - Unknown
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