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People say live with no regrets but I believe that having nothing you wish you had not done is unrealistic. There are situations I wish I hadn't been in, people I wish I'd developed a better relationship with. There are even thinking back to my choice of words at times, I wish I hadn't chosen them. I am not saying dwell on the past but that, if you have regrets, have them, learn from them, and let that be that. Too often we have regrets about decisions we make and then do the exact same thing. Where is the maturity in that?

Let today be the day that you begin thinking about your life critically. Everyone always says they want to be happy but I think joy is what we are often in search of. Joy, in my opinion,is a stronger, less conditional form of happiness. Joy is to happiness what love is to like. It isn't just something you find in an instance, but rather something you must work toward and pray for. I was happy when I was single. I am working toward having a joyful relationship with Des. I am happy when I get paid from my job. I will find joy when I am getting paid to do something that I am passionate about. I was happy when I crossed Alpha. Joy came when I death marched off of the fountain with my LBs. I am happy when I have a couple drinks and go out to the party. I find joy in reading the Word.

Is the difference clear?

From this point on, I am thinking critically about life. Sometimes you must let go of short term happiness in order to find joy. And, in that joy, if you realize that it is a continual journey and not a destination, you will find a greater happiness than you could have ever experienced in your state of ignorance.


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Litera scripta manet. - Unknown

What to Do?!

I want to do it all... I've got a certain lust for life and as it stands, everything is going as right as it can. They're trying to shoot down my flight before it lands. -- Drake

Some people say they can do anything and don't believe it. I say I can do anything and I know it. If I trained hard enough, I could be a professional athlete. If I studied hard enough, I could get into med school and become a doctor. If I utilized my ability to speak well and took the proper steps, I could be the president of the US. My issue is focusing on one thing. I need to sit down and draw out a few plans, prioritize them, and take steps toward the most important. The only limited resource I have is time. Some say I'm cocky. Some call me confident. Truth is, I might be a bit of both but it is because I'm not at all worried about "making it." Success is written in my ambition. I know that God gave me my ability and I humbly accept that, but I also know that he only made one man better than me - Jesus. Aside from him, we are all equals, just with different talents. So, yeah, I am confident thay I'll be at the top of everything I do. My only question is how I'm going to get there.

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Made My Bed

I sometimes wonder if life is going to come back and bite me. I'm actually kind of scared that all the wrong I've done is going to come back to me in some form or fashion. Don't get me wrong, I never killed anyone or sold anyone crack or robbed someone, but I have done my share of dirt. And I feel like it would be just my luck for things to happen right when I am pretty happy. I know I cannot undo the past but I can change the future. I hope He is giving me a clean slate. I pray that, even though I made my bed, I don't have to lie in it. I am changed, but I wonder if that is enough to dodge the dreaded "you reap what you sew" verse. Say a prayer for me please. I want this joy to stay.

Litera scripta manet. - Unknown