Don't feel much like writing tonight. So I'm not. Goodnight
Litera scripta manet. - Unknown
Thursday, August 13, 2009
Tuesday, August 11, 2009
Hawthorne (No Jada)
"No man can wear one face to himself and another to the multitude without finally getting bewildered as to which may be true ”— N. Hawthorne
I just saw this quote and had to write about it. It is crazy the faces we wear to keep up an appearance, but really, we have to be real. Facades can only take us so far before we start believing the lies that we lead. But the truth always comes out, so if we're not honest with ourselves as well as with those around us, we will cause such turmoil within ourselves that it could cause a breakdown. I am right now looking myself in the mirror, seeing the ways in which I have changed, and trying to strengthen the positive changes I've undergone, while adjusting the negative aspects of my personality. I made myself believe that I was something I wasn't and it has hurt myself, those closest to me, and those who could have been close to me.
Still, I know that I will wear different faces in business settings to get what I want. As long as I can remove the face when I take a look in the mirror and still bear to look at myself, I know that I will be OK. In personal settings, I am going to try to increase my mask-less representation. I want to be straight forward with everyone all the time from now on, because a lack of full disclosure leads to people being hurt and as little as I care about some people, no one deserves to be hurt and if I could stop myself from ever hurting anyone else emotionally again I would. But because I hope not to die tonight, that wish probably won't come true. So the least I can do is be honest from the jump
Litera scripta manet. - Unknown
I just saw this quote and had to write about it. It is crazy the faces we wear to keep up an appearance, but really, we have to be real. Facades can only take us so far before we start believing the lies that we lead. But the truth always comes out, so if we're not honest with ourselves as well as with those around us, we will cause such turmoil within ourselves that it could cause a breakdown. I am right now looking myself in the mirror, seeing the ways in which I have changed, and trying to strengthen the positive changes I've undergone, while adjusting the negative aspects of my personality. I made myself believe that I was something I wasn't and it has hurt myself, those closest to me, and those who could have been close to me.
Still, I know that I will wear different faces in business settings to get what I want. As long as I can remove the face when I take a look in the mirror and still bear to look at myself, I know that I will be OK. In personal settings, I am going to try to increase my mask-less representation. I want to be straight forward with everyone all the time from now on, because a lack of full disclosure leads to people being hurt and as little as I care about some people, no one deserves to be hurt and if I could stop myself from ever hurting anyone else emotionally again I would. But because I hope not to die tonight, that wish probably won't come true. So the least I can do is be honest from the jump
Litera scripta manet. - Unknown
Tonight is The Night (maybe)
Good morning. I'm just now getting in from a pretty fun night. Which leads me to write about my fun summer. But we will look at this summer in the context of four nights, two being very extreme, two being pretty moderate.
Far Right
On a boring night (50% of my summer), I eat with my family, sit around the house and watch television, end the night on the phone. The phone is usually the highlight of my evening, but I consider the evening boring because I spend it in the confines of my parents' home.
Moderate right
On a pretty moderate night (20% of my summer), I'll end up at a cookout or pool party, usually with the bruhs. Maybe a couple beers and some food. Just some all around good fellowship with friends. (<--example of tonight)
Moderate left
On another pretty regularly occurring night (25% of my summer), I go out to a bar, house party, apartment party, or club. I might have 2 or 3 drinks, but I'm mainly just there to enjoy the company of those around me. It's fun to just go out and relax in a very social setting since I spend my days doing nothing.
Far left
The rarest of all these types of nights has only gotten me once this summer and it left me confused. We'll leave it at that, but it's not something I make a habit of. If you want details, get in touch w/ me personally.
During the day, I try to be productive even though I don't have much to do. But I set goals for myself and reach them. So at night, I try to relax with friends. 85% of the times I've been out, it's been with my best friend. He just graduated and is about to leave for a full-time job so I am trying to enjoy time spent with him. This year been too much of a blessing to me not to enjoy it so I'm enjoy every season, especially summer. -)
Litera scripta manet. - Unknown
Far Right
On a boring night (50% of my summer), I eat with my family, sit around the house and watch television, end the night on the phone. The phone is usually the highlight of my evening, but I consider the evening boring because I spend it in the confines of my parents' home.
Moderate right
On a pretty moderate night (20% of my summer), I'll end up at a cookout or pool party, usually with the bruhs. Maybe a couple beers and some food. Just some all around good fellowship with friends. (<--example of tonight)
Moderate left
On another pretty regularly occurring night (25% of my summer), I go out to a bar, house party, apartment party, or club. I might have 2 or 3 drinks, but I'm mainly just there to enjoy the company of those around me. It's fun to just go out and relax in a very social setting since I spend my days doing nothing.
Far left
The rarest of all these types of nights has only gotten me once this summer and it left me confused. We'll leave it at that, but it's not something I make a habit of. If you want details, get in touch w/ me personally.
During the day, I try to be productive even though I don't have much to do. But I set goals for myself and reach them. So at night, I try to relax with friends. 85% of the times I've been out, it's been with my best friend. He just graduated and is about to leave for a full-time job so I am trying to enjoy time spent with him. This year been too much of a blessing to me not to enjoy it so I'm enjoy every season, especially summer. -)
Litera scripta manet. - Unknown
Monday, August 10, 2009
I Guess Sometimes Parents Just Do Understand
OK, this is NOT going to happen often so I'm going to write it while I am feeling humble.
My parents are not always wrong. Sometimes they are right.
UNCG wanted to make me pay them all of the money I owe before they released my financial aid. So I called them and they said I had to pay the entire $300 that I owe. So I was just going to pay it. But my parents were adamant about calling the Cashier's office so, after I tried to talk them out of wasting time on that, I said fine. So we talked to a lady in the Cashier's Office and she said that Financial Aid was wrong. All I really have to do is pay $95.91 and I'd be good. Had I not listened to Deryle Daniels, Sr., I would have had to borrow $300 from a bruh. So I am glad I listened this time. But I still think I'm right most of the time.
Litera scripta manet. - Unknown
My parents are not always wrong. Sometimes they are right.
UNCG wanted to make me pay them all of the money I owe before they released my financial aid. So I called them and they said I had to pay the entire $300 that I owe. So I was just going to pay it. But my parents were adamant about calling the Cashier's office so, after I tried to talk them out of wasting time on that, I said fine. So we talked to a lady in the Cashier's Office and she said that Financial Aid was wrong. All I really have to do is pay $95.91 and I'd be good. Had I not listened to Deryle Daniels, Sr., I would have had to borrow $300 from a bruh. So I am glad I listened this time. But I still think I'm right most of the time.
Litera scripta manet. - Unknown
Friday, August 7, 2009
Don't Call Me King Leonidas
The closer I get to next Saturday, the more ready I am to move back to Greensboro. I have been ready to start this year for sooooooooooooo long. Even though I will have an extra semester (not planned for), this is my last full year of school! I am so thankful that God brought me this far. This generation is going to be the first on my father mother's side to graduate from college. I am only preceded as the first male to graduate only by my older cousin Sean. On my mom's side I will be the first male to graduate ever. (I am not including anyone outside of uncles, aunts, first cousins in these "facts").
Anyway, in preparation for this year, I have been working on my mind, body, and soul. I hope to go back to school focused, with a plan, but also with an open mind and a strong, yet flexible schedule. I really want to work hard, enjoy this year, and make the most out of everyday. I'm going to go see every movie I want to see this year. I'm not going to party too much, but when I do go out, I'm going to have a great time (Plug - ****BLACK PEARL***** HOSTED BY THE PLAYBOI PI ZETA CHAPTER OF AΦA AND THE LADIES OF PEARLFECTION ******THURSDAY AUGUST 27TH******** @ BENTLY'S...FREE SHUTTLE RIDES TO AND FROM THE CLUB....THE OFFICIAL BACK TO SCHOOL PARTY...................06-08-OH YEAH!!). I am going to hang out with my fraternity brothers, regardless of chapter, and go on road trips. I'm going to have out of town bruhs sleeping on my couch when they come through Greensboro because that is the true meaning of fraternity. I am going to pull at least a 3.5 GPA because I'm in college to get an education. I am going to read the Bible every day. I am going to get bigger and stronger. I am going to serve the community. BBSA will be the premiere general body organization (not black organization but organization period) on the campus of UNCG. The Pi Zeta chapter of Alpha Phi Alpha Fraternity will hold up the light for the campus to see. It will be a great year because life is too short not to enjoy it.
When I look back over the past 3 years, I must say that I am fortunate to have had the opportunities I have had. God has given me opportunities that many people could only dream of. Though true friends are few and far between, the ones that I really can count on have been rocks to me. Life is a blessing and I really want to take all of it's lessons and let this year be an unforgettable one. So if you're hating, hate on. But if you're with me, let's make moves this year. Let's make the University of North Carolina at Greensboro the most dynamic school in the The University of North Carolina system. Regardless of what organization(s) you might be in, let the UNCG chapter of that organization be the strongest in the state and the nation. Let's let the light of our school shine bright and, with or without a football team or a Tarheel-talented basketball roster, let's make our school everyone's first choice.
Litera scripta manet. - Unknown
Anyway, in preparation for this year, I have been working on my mind, body, and soul. I hope to go back to school focused, with a plan, but also with an open mind and a strong, yet flexible schedule. I really want to work hard, enjoy this year, and make the most out of everyday. I'm going to go see every movie I want to see this year. I'm not going to party too much, but when I do go out, I'm going to have a great time (Plug - ****BLACK PEARL***** HOSTED BY THE PLAYBOI PI ZETA CHAPTER OF AΦA AND THE LADIES OF PEARLFECTION ******THURSDAY AUGUST 27TH******** @ BENTLY'S...FREE SHUTTLE RIDES TO AND FROM THE CLUB....THE OFFICIAL BACK TO SCHOOL PARTY...................06-08-OH YEAH!!). I am going to hang out with my fraternity brothers, regardless of chapter, and go on road trips. I'm going to have out of town bruhs sleeping on my couch when they come through Greensboro because that is the true meaning of fraternity. I am going to pull at least a 3.5 GPA because I'm in college to get an education. I am going to read the Bible every day. I am going to get bigger and stronger. I am going to serve the community. BBSA will be the premiere general body organization (not black organization but organization period) on the campus of UNCG. The Pi Zeta chapter of Alpha Phi Alpha Fraternity will hold up the light for the campus to see. It will be a great year because life is too short not to enjoy it.
When I look back over the past 3 years, I must say that I am fortunate to have had the opportunities I have had. God has given me opportunities that many people could only dream of. Though true friends are few and far between, the ones that I really can count on have been rocks to me. Life is a blessing and I really want to take all of it's lessons and let this year be an unforgettable one. So if you're hating, hate on. But if you're with me, let's make moves this year. Let's make the University of North Carolina at Greensboro the most dynamic school in the The University of North Carolina system. Regardless of what organization(s) you might be in, let the UNCG chapter of that organization be the strongest in the state and the nation. Let's let the light of our school shine bright and, with or without a football team or a Tarheel-talented basketball roster, let's make our school everyone's first choice.
Litera scripta manet. - Unknown
Wednesday, August 5, 2009
Bleep Bleep Bleep Bleep Bleep
Have you ever thought about the purpose of our existence? What if we are no more than ants in a world of giants? What if ants think they have the same importance that we have? We are so self-absorbed that we have led ourselves to believe that we are the epitome of all that this world has to offer. In all actuality, we may play a minuscule role in the larger scheme of things. This is not to contradict any biblical teachings because I believe that these two schools of thought can coexist. Just because we are God's most important creations does not make us his only intelligent creations. This is also not to say that I believe in "aliens." I just like to think that maybe we really don't know all that we think we know. Maybe we do. Thing is, if we look at our lives from the perspective of an ant, maybe we'll see that we could be no more than bleeps on the radar.
Litera scripta manet. - Unknown
Litera scripta manet. - Unknown
Tuesday, August 4, 2009
Feel It In The Air
I was suffering from writers block up until 2 minutes ago and had asked a couple people what I should write about today. It was suggested that I write about the movie that I saw yesterday, but I'm not much of a critic. It was also suggested that I write about my future plans, but I'm not much of a psychic either. So I guess I'll write about something that I really do love: Hip-Hop.
I really don't feel like doing some long, drawn out explication on how Hip-Hop is dead. It's not dead, it's just replacing a lot of it's meat with fat. But it's still got some strong muscles. E.O.D. (End of discussion). I just want to write about my favorite rap song - Feel It In the Air by Beanie Sigel. I'm not going to say it's one of the best hip-hop songs b/c I know it's not. Beanie Sigel is definitely far from one of the world's greatest rappers. But this song is my personal favorite because it speaks to much to where I feel like I am and always will be in my life. Regardless of how much I mature, I feel like I will always have a hard time trusting most people.
I'm going to let Beans say the rest of what I want to say. These are some of my favorite lines from the song.
"I ain't the captain of the yacht but I'm on the boat. I read between the lines of your eyes and your brows. ya handshake ain't matchin' your smile. I sit alone in my 4 cornered room... ready to go bananas. i hear this voice in the back of my mind like mack tighten up ya circle before they hurt you. read they body language - 85% communication non-verbal."
Litera scripta manet. - Unknown
I really don't feel like doing some long, drawn out explication on how Hip-Hop is dead. It's not dead, it's just replacing a lot of it's meat with fat. But it's still got some strong muscles. E.O.D. (End of discussion). I just want to write about my favorite rap song - Feel It In the Air by Beanie Sigel. I'm not going to say it's one of the best hip-hop songs b/c I know it's not. Beanie Sigel is definitely far from one of the world's greatest rappers. But this song is my personal favorite because it speaks to much to where I feel like I am and always will be in my life. Regardless of how much I mature, I feel like I will always have a hard time trusting most people.
I'm going to let Beans say the rest of what I want to say. These are some of my favorite lines from the song.
"I ain't the captain of the yacht but I'm on the boat. I read between the lines of your eyes and your brows. ya handshake ain't matchin' your smile. I sit alone in my 4 cornered room... ready to go bananas. i hear this voice in the back of my mind like mack tighten up ya circle before they hurt you. read they body language - 85% communication non-verbal."
Litera scripta manet. - Unknown
Sunday, August 2, 2009
All The Small Things
Good evening world. Today I gave back for the first time this entire summer. Sad to say, I have selfishly used my time on myself. But today, I served as a chaperon on my church's youth group trip to Carowinds . I really didn't want to go at first b/c I knew it would make me think about when I went to Six Flags last summer w/ Britt. But when I got on the church van with those kids, I smiled so much. Children really are God's gift to us. Their innocence can make the hardest people soft. It felt so good to do something that wasn't self serving in anyway. It would have been easy for me to sit around and workout or go hoop with my boys or something. But instead I went to hang out with a bunch of young, energetic kids who wore me out. And it felt great. I needed that. It reminded me of how simple life can be and how we overlook the small blessings.
Litera scripta manet. - Unknown
Litera scripta manet. - Unknown
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